Really fucking bad.
Every year I start the first few days in early January with full of Enthusiasm and motivation to design my own life. My mind gets flooded with so many exciting ideas and dreams. In another words, I am usually always happy and confident to do anything.
However its very different this year. Things are going really fucking bad. I can hardly think of any reason for this.
Infact everything around me is pretty much OK. My family is all healthy, my super clever friends give me advices to make my life better, my girl friend supports me everyday and the world economy seems so exciting, facing the forefront of the next paradigm.
For some how I don’t feel right these couple of days. No creative thoughts, awkward communication, being negative and everything inside me is just fucked up. If its like a mental problem, I feel easy. Its just that I hope its not a sign of incoming catastrophe.
Maybe better visit my neighborhood Shrine. Refreshing my mind and soul.